Into The Rabbit Hole

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It’s amazing how I have been able to pick up just the right book for just the right time in this life. I’m currently reading The Great Cosmic Mother, which is a history book on religion and women in religion. It talks about ancient beliefs, ancient worship, ritual, and idolatry. The underlying theme is that history forgets to include the dramatic role women played in religion, and that much of today’s patriarchal religion is to blame. It was an intentional omission– one that would ensure that those who have come to be In Charge remain In Charge. (conspiracy theory part a)

Along with the synchronicity in the things I’m reading and learning about, I’ve found that the simplest “coincidences” have left me astonished. For instance, in my recent reads, I have seen a general repeating theory that time as we understand it has a dramatic change on December 21st, 2012. Some call it the end of time, some call it a great awakening. As of yet, I’m no authority on the subject, but I am going to give you a tiny glimpse of what I’m learning, in layman’s terms. (conspiracy theory part a2/b)

Apparently, the Mayan people had calendars that ended on this date. Nostradamus and several other prophets predicted this as the end of the world. Astrologists have noted that in cyclical fashion, the planets all line up just so on this date. Notably, this is the winter solstice. (conspiracy theory part b2)

In the video I recommended you watch, they mention that there are phases of our existence, and this date marks the end of our current phase, which is the building up of technologies. By this time, we will have supposedly exploded in the realms of technology so dramatically, that we will have forgotten where our roots are– our pagan (of the earth) history. (conspiracy theory part a3/b2)

In many ways, we already have come this far. Our media overflows our brains with meaningless drivel. We have lost touch with the spiritual ways, with our own magical powers. In fact, we’re so far gone that the logicians within us will say, “Poppycock! There is no such thing as magic!” and at the same time have no way of explaining miracles, coincidences, or the phenomenon of right thinking. (conspiracy theory part b4/c)

Could it be true? I’m not someone I would consider a conspiracy theorist, as much as it might sound like it in this post. I would rather find myself in affinity with open-minded observation. A true scientist in that I want to test every possibility until I come up with sufficient enough evidence to support one (or more) theory which will then resonate true within me.

When faced with the ambiguous December 21st, 2012 prophecy, I wonder how much and to what extent this might be true. If I believe it thoroughly, do I change how I act? Do I change my goals? Surely I won’t even be through medical school by then? What is my purpose if it all ends? Inevitably, I know that there is no point in changing that path for myself. Ultimately, in coming to terms with my own mortality, I have realized that we always have plans– and short of postponing happiness until we reach our goals, there are no wrong ways of going about reaching them– even if we never reach them. I used to imagine the horror and sadness of what would happen should my life be cut short… Oh sad, she was working so hard for her dreams. She was going to be a doctor. (And in my head, I’m saying the word “doctor” much like Audrey did in The Little Shop of Horrors, when addressing her abusive, sadistic dentist boyfriend.) (conspiracy theory part d)

The point is, I can’t change my plans, even for something as major as the end of the world. If it doesn’t happen, then I would be wasting my life. I would be sitting around, chatting doomsday conspiracy, and trying to figure out how the hell to repay my student loans. No, I can do nothing short of plugging away at the things I value most… my education, and learning from my experience.

So, let’s say something dramatic does happen on December 21st, 2012. Do I forgo Christmas gifts and buy drinking water? We all did this in preparation for Y2K. (conspiracy theory part y) And we were left with loads of canned goods and bottled water, much to the dismay and pride of the computer industries. It’s seemingly all hype, something dramatic to talk about. How does one really prepare for the end of the world?

I’m not sure that one truly can prepare for such things. Let’s say the planet’s magnetic shift really does happen– theoretically based upon evidence of magnetic pull of the other planets in our system. If we’re in an airplane, out side of gravity’s grasp, then what? We aptly dodge all of the billions of things that lift from the face of the earth, praying we somehow miss everything– in hopes that the plane’s engines don’t clog with a suffocating fog of dust and trash and pollution currently held into our world through the force of gravity? And how do we ensure that we, too, won’t fly out into outer space, pummeled by people and dogs, who are hopefully by this time dead from suffocation and the change of air pressure in their brains? Splat. (eeeeew) (conspiracy theory part e)

Do we fly to the moon and wait and watch for the show? (conspiracy theory part f)

Do we hunker down in underground caves, hoping Gaia’s transformation doesn’t crush us in the process? Do we cling to a tree, at our wits end waiting until things settle down? (conspiracy theory part f2)

Really, it seems to be a moot point in worrying about it.

Now, let’s say this whole prophecy is rather spiritual instead of physical. Do I choose some religious organization to save me? Do I convert to Jehovah’s Witness identity protection program and pray to Jehovah for forgiveness of my heretic thoughts? My right-thinking mind? Do I go back to my Lutheran roots, even if they just don’t feel right for me? How about worshiping the Goddess and performing pagan rituals? Is there anything I can actually DO or THINK that would save me? Or, rather, in this context, my soul? (conspiracy theory part g)

I’m not sure there is an answer. There isn’t really more than a theory of what will happen, and until it happens, I’m not sure I can be prepared for such things. In fact, I may celebrate 2013, looking back at such silly wonderment over how greatly or how little I bought into the End Of Times. It would be somewhat similar to my experience over Y2K, though I’m older now, and considerably less intoxicated. Maybe I will laugh harder, then. (conspiracy theory part z)

Anyways… as I was saying, the synchronicities are becoming more and more frequent within my experience. I intend on embracing these “coincidences” and not taking them too lightly. I, too, am on my own quest for knowledge, for truth, and for my own connection with the great mind– perhaps in my own way seeking the enlightenment that would allow for further prophecy. In so many ways, though, while I know I want to know the “truth” I recognize that the truth is different for every individual. Perhaps this is the key to philosophy– it’s subjective. Perhaps this is the key to prophecy– it’s subject to interpretation through the various lenses of personal perception. Every great prophet has predicted something that can be interpreted based on the events of today’s people. It is like a game of telephone or an obscure puzzle where people try to find meaning in dramatic experience (ie 9/11) by looking to yesterday’s wise men for answers. (conspiracy theory part z2)
Everyone, in their own right, is also seeking “truth.”

So, what is the truth? What is MY truth? I am not entirely certain of it (yet). I do have a few solid beliefs that are currently my truth– subject to changed based on my mood, what I’ve learned recently, and whom I’m surrounded with. One thing that is absolutely truth is that what I think about, I bring about. I have full responsibility of my experience, as do we all. So if we all believe this… (conspiracy theory part a4)

Well, then, couldn’t we change out December 21st, 2012 affects us? (conspiracy theory part a5)