I am so purely blessed, it’s unbelievable.My recent encounters with my past remind me that I turned out okay after all!  In spite of (fill in the blank), I am a highly functioning, growing, learning, fabulous woman.   It feels so good to remind myself that life for me isn’t bad at all– in fact, it’s amazing, it’s great, it’s PURRRFECT… And everything I experience along this lifetime only adds to me as a whole.   There is no experience that won’t completely complement me, and as I move along, right or wrong, up or down, happy or sad, I am doing it all exactly as I should… I like who I am after all, even if I cannot predict my behavior, even if I do stupid things sometimes, and even if my emotions aren’t 100% kept in check.How validating.  As it turns out, I’m okay just as I am.  I’m okay when I’m hyper-needy for four days out of every twenty-eight because it reminds me that I’m healthy and fertile.  I’m okay when I love someone, even if they don’t love me back, because I know that I have the capacity to FEEL.  I’m okay when I say things that I shouldn’t have, because I catch myself and learn about how it feels when someone is hurt by me AND because it makes me a more forgiving person when someone says something they shouldn’t have.  I’m okay when I’m cranky, because it reminds me that I have a bed to sleep in. I’m okay, because I’m human, and I learn from my experiences.   I’m utilizing my time in this life wisely, because I’m doing everything within my ability to make sure that I’m learning from my experiences and doing it right the next time the opportunity presents itself.It feels good to know these things about myself.  I feel comfortable in my own skin again.  I’m not self-conscious about my body any more.  I’m not self-conscious about my moods and hormones.  I trust my behavior, and I know I have a good heart.  I am not malicious, and I am not hurtful.  I can be human, even if it means that sometimes I feel sad or hurt or crazy.   And I don’t have to worry about whether or not people like me when I feel this way.   I KNOW that my friends love me.  I KNOW that I am surrounded by people who genuinely love me so much that nothing can change that.To be able to say this gives me a completely blessed feeling.  It’s so good to not be afraid any more.

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