Through my eyes, the line between dreams and reality is a slight one.  Sometimes it is nearly impossible for me to tell the difference. This is frightening to me because the inability to decipher reality is an indication of psychosis.   Not to say I suspect I’m psychotic, but what I’m saying sounds fairly psychotic. What I mean to say is this:  When life becomes so magical, so powerful, so intense, so perfect, it seems only reasonable to question it.  It seems only reasonable that I might suspect that there is some alternate explanation… …perhaps because I’m just dreaming.  Or maybe, as in the movie Vanilla Sky, maybe I’m dead and this is just how I picked my memories to carry on.  (Perhaps THIS is where I begin to sound more psychotic, I can’t decide.)The point is, I believe in magic.  I believe in creating my own existence, and I believe that perception is 99% of reality.  I also believe that when I changed the way I perceived this world, I changed my reality.

Nay-sayers will gladly call me delusional because I consistently find the glass half-full… or even better yet, I find it overwhelmingly abundant– overflowing, more than I could possibly ever need… and perhaps I AM delusional.  But I’m happy… and who can beat happiness? I refuse to see it any other way, really. And in turn, my life is extraordinary.  I almost can’t think of anything more fantastic than my experience because I have put SO much thought into it– into exactly what I want from it.  I have gone through trials and errors and decided what I want and what I don’t want.  And in that, I have focused on what I want, and have quickly created it. It doesn’t stop here… it doesn’t stop until I say so.  I can continue to focus on what I want– I can change what I want as I feel fit… I can have and experience anything.  And it is. This is where I begin trying to pinch myself.  Or better, I start having other people pinch me.  In fact, I like the way it feels to be pinched because it reminds me that I’m more likely NOT dreaming, and that this is genuinely what I’m experiencing.  THIS is my reality. So, let’s say, just for a moment, that I am hypothetically psychotic.  Let’s say that I’m delusional and enjoying something that isn’t real. So then, I must ask you, what is it that this hypothetical accomplishes?  Does it make me feel any less?  Does it make YOU feel better?

Truly, isn’t the ultimate experience joy, after all?  Isn’t THAT what we’re ultimately striving for?  Is it NOT what YOU are striving for? Well… that is very sad, I think.  (if you aren’t striving for joy) What IS it that you’re striving for? And I suggest you ponder this:  is it what you’re getting?  I’d bet that probably what you spend most of your focus on is what you’re getting.  Even if you’re thinking about what you don’t want.   You’re getting it, because that’s what your perception is all about.  And, as I said, perception is 99% of reality. So… there are two kinds of people (maybe more, but for the purposes of this blog, I pick 2). There are the kinds who happily accept delusion and are filled with joy, and those who insistently deny joy and embrace “reality” for what they see it as. Of course, I would never say I don’t embrace reality… in fact, to be honest, I’ve never felt more grounded in my life before.  I have never felt more alive… to the contrary, I don’t believe I am dead or dreaming… instead, I am accomplishing my goals.  I am moving towards my hopes and bringing life into my plans. How much more reality do you need than to make your dreams into your reality? Doom and gloom all you will.  That is what you pick, and that is perfectly okay.

I’m okay with your perception… but… you’ll notice that I’m not looking at the same picture you are… you’ll also notice that I’m significantly more happy than your average doom n gloomer.  In fact, from my perspective, the world looks magnificent– filled with joy, hope, and beauty… So… it doesn’t matter which “reality” you pick.  Mine or yours.  *shrug*  they’re equally real to the people who believe in them. Just as faeries and Jesus. Tell me, what do you pick to believe in?

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