I’m doing this to prove to myself that I can.

A mentor advised me to not compare myself to my competition, because ultimately how well I do has little to do with my competition and everything to do with me setting standards against myself for which I can break.

My greatest competition, truly then, is myself.

Only *I* am as capable as me.  Only *I* am my worst critic.  As long as I am honest with myself, then only *I* am the person I must answer to.

I take it all on because I want to.  There is no other decision-maker but myself.  And because I believe this, I know that I create it.  I pick my attitude about it.  I pick my strategies.  I have always done this alone.

I’m not alone any longer.  I have the support I desire. Yet, I am not a part, I am a complementary whole.

It is this sort of selfishness that is necessary.  This “selfishness” is expected from a person with such knowledge of their control over their experience, such awareness.  “Selflessness” in this perspective is not only a detriment, but a self-failure.  A failure of self.

This is not to judge others in their experience, because as they are is what they are.  Everyone, whether they’re aware of it or not, is responsible for their own path.  Their own challenges… and whether they choose to blame or throw responsibility elsewhere is their own decision, again, their own creation.  I understand now what he meant when an old friend stated that it is our job to love people for exactly where they’re at.  It’s not a judgment, it is an acceptance.  Not an allowance, an embracing joy for I know that I have chosen my own path, perfectly.

To be marked with my decisions holds great responsibility.

To take great risk, is to find even greater reward.

And I welcome it.

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