Magnificent life.
So beautiful it is to be here, to be alive, to experience.

Emotion in all of its splendor, friendship in all of its flavors, harmony in all of its passion and glory…I keep learning more and more about myself as I move along this path, and I know it must be the correct path for me because as I discover and grow, I fall more deeply in love with myself and my creations. It’s important that I learn these lessons, and I’ve recently uncovered the secret to these experiences: the secret is that those things that make you the most uncomfortable provide you the most amazing stories and knowledge long term.

If you can appreciate these experiences for what they are, you can allow the lessons to come to you, instead of kicking and screaming when an opportunity to grow has been presented.

Change is rarely comfortable.

Change is rarely welcomed.
Change is an imperative function of our lives, and if we disallow it, we become stagnant. I can look back at the many changes I have experienced and know with certainty that had I not gone through these changes, I would not be in the brilliant place I am today. I’ve learned to never regret those things that end on a sour note. I have learned that as long as I am thoughtful and kind and considerate with every ounce of who I am, then the things that bring an uncomfortable change are not only temporary, but necessary.

Where I could possibly be without my proaction is devastatingly sad, and honestly a place I hope to never be. Those things that draw forth the most passionate sad emotions for me are complete bittersweet– because I know with all of my heart that the sadness makes way for thrivation, for imminent growth and prosperity. I have been accused of many things recently– accused of being a shining light, an inspiration, and someone who is brutally honest. Those things I can handle.

I’ve felt inappropriate guilt over things that were not entirely my control– or were outside of my responsibility. Guilt is a terrible experience, and I hope to not allow that emotion back into my life. This is my life, this is who I am, and I am happy with it. I know who I am, and I am in love with me.

*I* am my responsibility. No one else is here to cater to my emotional needs, spiritual well-being and mental wellness. I am the only person here who is fully responsible for my experience, for these things that are immeasurably important. This responsibility can even feel a bit overwhelming. This responsibility embodies my creative powers, my creative prowess, and with it comes my creative authority.

This is my life, my screenplay, and I am the starring actress. I write my own book, and I am not only obligated, but entirely qualified and capable. So many people are victims to their experience, but not me. I am the artist, and this life is my canvas. Every day I wake up is another opportunity to shine my light upon the paths of others– and any opportunity lost is never recovered. I take this role seriously, and I am happy to man the ship and move forward with great happiness and loyalty to myself and to the ones I love.

Love. I think this is a natural response to creative embodiment. It’s impossible to be a creative creature and not be completely filled with love, awe, and admiration for this beautiful opportunity that is my life.

Do you really know just how lucky you are to have this chance? I will explain it to you. First, we live on this tiny planet which circles around a relatively tiny star. We have at least nine planets that rotate around this tiny star, and to the best of our knowledge, only this one planet is suitable for life. This planet is so exponentially capable of supporting living creatures that it has been the fertile grounds for not just one succession of living, sentient beings, but several times over… even in the face of devastating destruction, life on this planet has prevailed. It is a freak accident of nature that this earth was ever even formed, and yet here we are, beautiful, amazing, thinking, loving beings, populating this planet and THRIVING. Now look at this star… our astronomers have discovered hundreds of stars in our neighborhood of our galaxy. Within our galaxy is at minimum one hundred million stars. Around these other stars, a plethora of other similar and also very different planets revolve. We are carried, day and night, without any effort, around this beautiful, life-giving star. Again, one of at least a hundred million stars in our galaxy. And our galaxy is one of at least a hundred million other galaxies. With other stars, and many other planets. Yet for some reason, we were lucky enough to be “born” onto this one. And with that privilege, we have individually and societally reigned in our creative powers, and have created an extraordinarily dynamic set of social laws and norms. We have become so cognizant of our own brains and understandings that we continue to formulate new hypotheses and scientific leaps and bounds that take us to even the most extraordinary and phenomenal laws and facts of our being. A complete, freak accident of nature, we are. And as we become more and more aware of our world around us, we make discoveries that lead us closer to the ultimate awareness of just how divine and special this existence IS! It’s baffling just how extraordinary it all is. It’s a bit overwhelming, even.

I cannot believe how awesome it is to have come this far, and to be one of the people truly realizes my creative power in this entire process.

I am the artist. This is my canvas, and there are no rules. How beautiful it is.

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