I must surround myself with the people I want to be like. Their vibrations draw my own to them.
The vibration of my energy is raised to their level when I’m around them. *positive* *healthy* *glowing* *thriving* *motivated* *successful* *happy* *kind* *growing* *hard-working* *creative* *dedicated* *loyal* *brilliant* *brave* *respectful* *respectable* *joyful* *grounded* *peaceful* *comfortable* *confident* *capable* *spiritual* *enlightened* *energetic* *energized* *determined* *active* *open-minded* *gracious* *expressive* *responsible* *trustworthy* *soul-searching* *life-seeking* *love-showing* *divinity-expressing* *beautiful*

Sometimes I feel so helpless…I feel like I want to save the world– especially the world of my loved ones. I wish I could make it all better for all of you when you’re going through a rough time… I wish I could say the right things and put a smile back on your face. I wish I had that kind of power.  I know it’s not my job to save the world.  I know it’s typical of me to have a Knight-In-Shining-Armour-Complex… It makes me sad, though–to the point of tears–to see my beloveds unhappy… If I could give you a piece of my heart… a piece of the joy that I’ve found, I would.  I keep trying to hand it to you, but you won’t take it… most of the time, you don’t even see my extended arm… I feel like the kid trying to get her mother’s attention– here, look at me! Look at this present I have for you!! Loooook Aaaaat Meeeeeeeee!You don’t see it, though.  And what I have, you can’t just take from me by me offering it to you.  I understand that… I just wish it was different and that you could.

Please know that I’ll give you anything I can–if it will make you smile… When you’re ready… whatever you need.  Just tell me!  Until then, I will have to just sit back and wait.  Patience is a lesson I’m bound to learn.

   

It’s a crazy path.
Everything seems to be coming right along the way it should, though. Even stressful things are easier to deal with because I feel confident in my ability to stay focused and motivated to reach for happiness.

I have decided to like my job and to work full time, starting tomorrow.

I have decided to be loved and loveable, which includes loving my beautiful body.

I have decided that this opportunity for this one lifetime is extraordinary, and I am soaking up every drop of smiles and love while I can.

I want you to be aware of how appreciative I am for the circumstances that surround me.

I love that I continue to grow and thrive.

I am in love with my friends. All of them. I feel like I’m living life to its fullest potential.

I have many things to look forward to.

What a beautiful life.  I cannot even begin to completely express to you how purely blessed I am!  I have become surrounded by the most spectacular circumstances and people imaginable!
I’m going to need you to believe and trust me on this. I am going to need you to try it and see what becomes of it.  This life has more phenomenal opportunities to experience than you can even fathom!Within the last several months, I have met some of the most incredibly loving, compassionate, passionate, extraordinary people in this universe.  They are all so different and so beautiful!  Everything that is THEM completely complements those rare and beautiful diamonds I have held on to for so long– diamonds who are my best friends and diamonds I find within myself!  I had no idea that there really existed so many people with hearts of gold– with minds and souls of such grace and charm and beauty and infinite wisdom!  I personally always thought that those diamonds were few and far between, and now I continue to be blessed with the presence of such extraordinary and awesome people that the only thing I can do is just soak it up… I’m a sponge, reflecting your perfect beauty!I wish I could take an exact snap shot of this bliss I feel!  I hope that you, my friends, reading this know just how much I love you.  If you are one of these beautiful people reading this blog right now, you will read this and it will strike a chord inside of you, and you will know exactly who you are!  You are amazing!  I have never felt this perfect!  I have never felt this beautiful and amazing.  You have loved me, and appreciated me and validated every ounce of who I am– and because of your love, I have grown wings and can fly! I have been paid the most wonderful compliments in my life recently.  I have been showered with words that melt my soul!  Everything you are to me, everything you say to me, is devine.  YOUR LOVE HELPS ME THRIVE. You must know this much is true: My beloved friends, I love you!

If you have to ask “Is this love?” then it probably isn’t. I don’t believe in love at first sight. I don’t believe that you can fall in love with someone in only a few days. Love takes time, and when it does hit you, it’s like a freight train, hauling down its tracks, ready to plow over anything that might be so unlucky to be lying in its path. What I’m trying to say is that it’s obvious. And it doesn’t seem to matter how anything else feels. Right or wrong, convenient or not, it happens, and when two people feel it mutually, all hell freezes over. Now, take a group of people, falling in love with each other. Strange, but it happens (is happening). The group has several very different but similarly motivated people. The group interaction is filled with bliss, joy, and loving affirmations. Everyone’s primary goal is to live and love and enjoy life. This may sound strange, but it exactly how it is. Back to the love piece. Falling in love can feel like a tsunami. Love can be totally overwhelming. It can leave the most eloquent speaker speechless. I made a few comments the other evening about how I felt like I’m being catapulted across the world. I feel like it’s happening so quickly that every time I try to grasp for some sort of grounding, the things that would hold me back only slide right on through my fingers. I am that freight train, and I am filled with the most incredible love. In spite of these extraordinary emotions and joys, there are skeptics. There are people out here who believe that I’m just smoking too much ganja and that the hippie peace, love, and harmony is just bull shit. I assure you that if you were the kind of person who would like to experience this kind of happiness, you would embrace it whole-heartedly. Many people fear love, though, and push it as far away as they can. I choose not to be afraid. I choose to be receptive, and to appreciate and to experience. Within this amazing experience, I am finding myself becoming enamored with myself again. I am falling in love with those people who remind me of my beauty. I am falling in love with you.

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