Good things just seem to happen to me.

There’s a lot in my head right now, a lot floating around, and I’m trying to interpret it all– trying to figure out what is important to share and what isn’t. I wanted to tell you all about the good fortune I that is coming upon me.

First, there are the gifts. I have received so many gifts recently, it makes me smile to think of it. Today, I got a ride home from an old friend and a co-worker who stopped by the bus stop while I was waiting. “Where you headed?” I told them, and they said, “Get in!” so I did. I rode to my destination with friends. However, I must add that I’ve learned one really important rule: Never trust a man who brakes with his left foot. *chuckle* I’ve been given homemade cookies from a classmate. A beautiful jade plant from one of the facilities guys. A homemade pumpkin muffin from one of our nurses. Good advice from my mentor… so many gifts!!! And you know what else? I realized that people are REALLY nice to me at work. I pass people in the hall, and I get smiles, constantly. People ask me how my day is or how school is going… people who I don’t really even know. They care, and they smile. Gifts… (more…)

The Homestead is looking absolutely amazing!

I was given several hundred books from the Neurosurgery library.  We moved them into my library and throughout the entire process I was entirely giddy.  I have a dream of having a library, one with huge leather couches, big comfortable sitting chairs, beautiful glass lamps, a massive fireplace in the middle, and a ladder that rolls around the shelves.  I will have something more magnificent and classy later.  Until then, I’m perfectly tickled to have what I already have.  It’s a ceiling to floor, wall to wall bookshelves filled with books on everything.  I have kids books on the six other shelves in the basement.  I have five or six more bookshelves in our living room that may end up going downstairs into our library, too.  I certainly am at no shortage for reading materials.  I love books.  People give their souls to books when they read them.  Inside every cover, the papers begin to smell like the fingers that touched them… perhaps cried or laughed over them.  I inherited many of my grandmother’s books, and they are more valuable to me than probably any other possession I have.

Our living space has become a home.  We hang out in there, listening to music… drinking coffee, putting our feet up on our coffee table.  There are hundreds of plants.  Yes, we’re living in our dream home. 

We spent a lot of time yesterday on the front yard.  Goddess knows it needed our love.  It’s looking way better today than it did yesterday.  Man, it feels good to be home!

I love this Sunday morning… muffins are baking, my iPod is playing, and the house is filled with warmth and love.  I couldn’t have asked for better.  This IS my dream.   I love it so much!

The possibilities for my future are coming closer and closer to fruition.  I feel unstoppable, invincible.  I feel like the words I’m choosing seem a little manicky, but truly I am at peace.  I am content.  My hopes, my dreams, my future… they’re all coming to a place where they’re almost no longer just dreams and now are becoming my reality.  There is so much to be had, and I’m having it.

We can do this.  We can make this happen.  At the same time we’re dreaming… but how we feel is what’s making those dreams our reality right now.  I’m living in a dream world.  And I like it!

So… Today is the first weekend of the rest of my life.  Pretty brilliant, huh?  I cannot believe how awesome of a creator I am.  Really, truly.  I am becoming more and more quick. 

Do you remember me when I was in a job I hated?

Now I have the dream job.

Do you remember me when I had a home life I hated?

Now my home is filled with bliss in every minute of every day.

Do you remember me when I was miserable? 

Yeah… not so much any more.  Now I am following my dreams, my heart, my bliss.

To steal a line from my favorite movie:  “Follow your bliss.” You’d be amazed at how beautiful an experience this will be.

It’s all happening all at once.

Stress.  It is a filter on my experience.

I’m amazed at how easy it is to become distracted from pure, utter joy.  It’s easy to get carried away with gossip, drama, and feeling overwhelmed.

Today I vow to remind myself constantly that true happiness, from the depths of my heart is what I strive for.  I will settle for nothing less.  Once again I take inventory and decide exactly what it is that I want, so that I may aim for it. I don’t need to look any further.   I already have the most amazing friends in the world.  I have the circumstances I want in every facet of my experience.  I am already blessed so immensely it makes my head spin and I drop down to my knees in gratitude for the incredible people with which I have surrounded myself.  My life is absolutely perfect as it is, as I continue to make it. 

I refuse to view any of it through a negative lens.  Instead, all is well, all is absolutely as I wish it, and I feel much better about the situation.

As you were.

Feeling good is the fuel for success. Sometimes I forget to feel good.  However, as a powerful creator, I must focus on feeling good… I must focus on that amazing feeling I have when I can look up at the world around me, can raise my palms up in gratitude, and can really appreciate what my experience is RIGHT THIS MINUTE.I forget this sometimes.  I get caught up in feeling uncomfortable emotions– even if they’re not conducive to creating everything I want… even if the only result of continuing those feelings is a lower vibration, a lower mood, a lower experience.  I forget. But I’ve been reminded today.  I’ve been reminded that I need to pay attention to my mood.  I need to pay attention and do whatever is necessary to feel good… Feel good… Feel MAGNIFICENT! Why choose to feel anything different?  I believe that I was once under the fatal belief that we have no control over our emotions.  I remember hearing my past teachers say: “You cannot help who you fall in love with.  You cannot be responsible for your emotions, because that’s just how you feel.”   This is absolutely NOT the TRUTH. The truth is that YOU are the ONLY person responsible for your feelings. YOU are the only one who controls your emotions.  YOU are the only one who makes you FEEL ANYTHING!! Do not be a victim of your circumstances.  Be empowered. You can have and experience ANYTHING.  You can BE anything you want!  Do you want wealth?  Define wealth!  Do you want health?  Define health! Do you want love?  Define love!  Figure out what you want, and then paint yourself a picture of what it is that you want.   Find that gratitude feeling within your heart– that actual feeling you will feel once you have what you want.  Wrap your fingers around that gratitude feeling.  Wrap your brain around feeling good about what it is that you want.  Keep feeling good… and you will attract to you PRECISELY what it is that you want.

I believe that life is beautiful.I believe that good things happen.Where ever I go, people smile at me.  Where ever I go, people are kind to me.I’m not sure if it’s because I expect these things that they happen.  I believe that generally speaking, what you expect is what you get.I believe in the good intentions of people. I believe that many people are so accustomed to negativity that they forget to be nice; but they also are thrilled when someone is kind to them.I believe that life is filled with great experiences.  I believe that you can generally have whatever you want.  I believe that what I think about is what I bring about.  I believe that life can be absolutely phenomenal… and that it should be!!!

Some things you should know (aka things I’m continuing to learn.) Life isn’t necessarily fair.  You can fight it or you can change it or you can accept it.  Those are your options. You create everything that happens in your life, good and bad.  You cannot control other people, but you can pick what you do with what you’ve got. You’re not a victim. Some of the most important lessons are the ones that are least comfortable.You attract what you spend most of your time thinking about. Happiness is spending time feeling gratitude for the things and situations you want as though you already have them. You can’t make someone fall in love with you. Period. We are all on different paths, learning the same lessons.  Often we don’t know which direction we’re going or what impact we have on another person until after the fact. Loneliness is the fatal belief that you’re not okay as you are, on your own. Every single morning, you make a choice, conscious or not, about how your day will go. When faced with any situation, you can choose to deal with it happily or you can choose misery, or something in between.  Your choice.

Behind every uncomfortable situation is a silver lining.

Always.

Because I have a pure heart, and that’s what I create… good things happen to me.I know this more deeply than I’ve ever known before, and my faith has been renewed.Alas, I urge you, too, to find your silver lining.  There’s something good that comes from everything.  Always.   Don’t believe me?

Seek it.

This life is fucking nuts. Really.

I’m learning a ton as I move along, but frankly, sometimes it’s difficult to keep up with every moment and every lesson.

I knew a few months ago that I had moved from the comfortable role as teacher into the precarious role of student, and I embraced it. I was ready for my lesson, I said.

Little did I know how thoroughly chaotic this phase could be for me. It seems like every day holds a significant experience and every moment is chocked full of good, old fashioned lessons. And the most important lessons are the ones that are least comfortable.

So.

I learned in the last several months that I create everything. I am a powerful creator. Johnny told me today that it’s important to remember the end results and to not get too wrapped around the hows; the hows are the universe’s domain.

For instance, if I focus on love, I need to not focus on who I love or who loves me, rather, I need to focus on the feeling, the experience of love. If I focus on getting my dream job, I should focus on what it looks like, not where it is. If I focus on unexpected income, I focus on the feeling of finding the money, not where I get it.

This, I think, is the true source of happiness. It reminds us not to get too caught up in the hows, and focus on the feelings that we will feel in an ideal state. In my ideal state, I am successful, hard-working, in a rewarding job in the field I’m passionate about, have a peaceful and cooperative home life, am surrounded by affectionate, warm, and loving people, am able to dedicate the time and energy and thought into my education, and am able to share a private intimacy with someone whom I love and respect as much as I love and respect myself. It’s the feeling one embraces when they know they already have the ideal experience that is true happiness.

As we move along in our lives, we discover sometimes that what we believe is our ideal isn’t really what makes us happy, and therefore our ideals change and thus our focus changes… but that doesn’t change the feeling of happiness.

I’m amazed to discover how many therapists understand the Law of Attraction– that like attracts like.

It seems like the people who seek happiness the most are the ones who have truly embraced it. It’s simple: feel happy, and you will BE happy.I’m on a quest for like-minded people. I want to surround myself with people who make it a point to be happy. I want to be around people who work hard to accomplish their dreams. I want to be around people who dream big.

Dream big.

I was thinking about going off about how stupid and childish someone is acting, but then I decided that giving them that emotion is really not where I want to direct all that energy.

So instead of venting in my blog, I am going to put out good things, hoping that my passion for the good things will create more… good things.  Whatever you think passionately about is what you create more of.  Instead of focusing on what is right now, focus on what you are intentionally creating… right?  (What is right now is a result of past passionate thinking.)

So, no more negative emotions are going to be directed at this person or situation.   Instead, I choose to focus on kinder, gentler, happier things.  I choose to relinquish all negative energy, and let it be what it is while I turn my eyes to the things that make me happy.

I am going to tell you about the things I am happy about!

I am super happy that today, my doctors’ boss called me to tell me about a receptionist position that is opening up at the University Hospital.  In case this doesn’t click, I need to remind you that the University Hospital is the hospital that shoots off from the medical school I intend on going to.  I am quite certain that if I work at the University, I will meet people who will give me stellar recommendation letters to assist me into the medical school.  Boo-yah.

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