Knowing I got the smart genes of the family.

1. Silence when I’m the only one up yet.
2. A house filled with beautiful, thriving plants.
3. Having my grandmother’s Tarot deck to learn on.
4. Tulip buds.
5. Being able to go grocery shopping.
6. Old friends who become new friends.
7. My besterest, Amber H.
8. My inspiration many days, Amber Lotus.
9. Thinking about planting my garden soon.
10. Discovering a new, inexpensive means for a worm composter.

Being thankful seems to make life more enjoyable… it reminds me of what I already have and that one day I’ll have all of the things I’m in the process of creating. I strongly encourage it!!

Last week was pretty grueling!  I took a four day weekend for President’s Day, so that I could get completely prepared for my Organic Chem exam this week.  O Chem is going to be fairly challenging this semester,  so I’m VERY relieved to have only taken the O Chem lecture and lab and to be doing research. Thank GODDESS for having the wherewithal last December when I signed up for classes this semester to have not loaded up on schoolwork again– last semester was sufficiently crazy-making.  I’m pretty sure I learned my lesson.

A four day weekend should have been plenty of time to get ‘er all knocked out and compartmentalized in this here brain, but we had the kids, too… and they were sick all weekend.  Grrr.  This meant that while I *did* take the time to study, it was interrupted at times, and I still had other things to do… like laundry and help blow boogery noses and stuff.   Is it worth it?  Absolutely.  I love having booger noses in my life.  They say cute things and it’s neat to watch them learn and grow.

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Watch me

It’s amazing how I have been able to pick up just the right book for just the right time in this life. I’m currently reading The Great Cosmic Mother, which is a history book on religion and women in religion. It talks about ancient beliefs, ancient worship, ritual, and idolatry. The underlying theme is that history forgets to include the dramatic role women played in religion, and that much of today’s patriarchal religion is to blame. It was an intentional omission– one that would ensure that those who have come to be In Charge remain In Charge. (conspiracy theory part a)

Along with the synchronicity in the things I’m reading and learning about, I’ve found that the simplest “coincidences” have left me astonished. For instance, in my recent reads, I have seen a general repeating theory that time as we understand it has a dramatic change on December 21st, 2012. Some call it the end of time, some call it a great awakening. As of yet, I’m no authority on the subject, but I am going to give you a tiny glimpse of what I’m learning, in layman’s terms. (conspiracy theory part a2/b)

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Have you ever seen a child in a complete state of awe?  Think of what it was like as a child to see something magnificent, like a complicated Christmas light show.  Remember that sense of wonder, that sense of magnificence you felt as you couldn’t possibly fathom the genius who put it all together?  Visualize that emotion in your head, and bring it close to you, near you heart.

I would like to constantly be in a state of awe.  That wonderment, that joy… it was as though nothing else in the world existed besides that very moment.   That is the emotion I’d like to wrap myself in.

When I think of being a powerful creator of my own experience, and I think of all of the beautiful material things I want to manifest, I sort of lose glimpse over my goals…  it doesn’t seem quite right in my heart for me to say, “I want millions of dollars and a Jaguar”– even though, yes, I do want these things physically.  It feels better in my soul (perhaps more tangible?) for me to say, “I want to forever be in a state of awe.”  I feel like this feeling– this emotion within me– generally conflicts with any other state of being than to have everything I need and desire… it conflicts with being worried about money.  It conflicts with wondering how I’m going to feed myself or my family…

What I’m saying is that being in a constant state of awe includes providing for myself all of the material things that I think I cannot live without, like a Super V8.

Instead of focusing too much on the material things… I feel more inclined to focus on the feeling.  After all, it is that feeling of being in awe, that feeling of gratitude, which allows you to attract to you all that you desire.

There have been many synchronicities lately.

So many that “unusual” things have happened.

The most recent: I was speaking with a girlfriend about one of her friends.  She suggested that this friend do an unlikely favor for me.  I brushed it off, stating that I had never really even spoken with this person.   Today, I get a call from a phone number I didn’t recognize.  It was my girlfriend’s friend.  She was calling me to find out if she could get my girlfriend’s phone number from me because her daughter had accidentally deleted her number.

Hmmm?

It makes me very aware of what I think or say.

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The future has yet to happen, and therefore you must take full creative authority to paint a picture of what you want from it.

In this country, we can be anything we want.

I’ve learned a lot in the last six months… about myself, about my ability to create what I want, about the pointlessness of guessing what this life will bring to me. All I know is that I’m truly blessed, and that great things happen. Magnificent things happen. It is inevitable, because I look for them– I affirm that they do, and so therefore, that is exactly what I get. I have a certain amount of control– of responsibility for my outcomes, because I pick my goals and my attitudes towards my experience. This, I think, is the secret to happiness.

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Once again, my life is complete.   I find myself feeling as though I have plenty of everything, and having that feeling only constitutes more of having enough.

The kids are with us again this week.  They provide great amusement and joy.  Little girl giggles and little boy stories are almost more valuable than gold.  We had them for the New Year’s Eve, and instead of getting a sitter, we stayed home.  Sort of.  We went across the street to our neighbor’s, where we ate like royalty and played billiards and other parlor games.   At midnight, we gathered all of the kids and went outside and watched some fireworks, and I got the most lovely New Year’s kiss.  The night was mostly uneventful, and that’s exactly what we were going for.

This last year was incredible!  I have never had such an extraordinary year, and I look forward to making 2008 even better.  Last year I went through the most magnificent changes: Who I am now is very different from whom I was on the New Year’s Eve of 2007.  I like the changes, and I feel entirely at ease with where I’m at now.  I have a beautiful family, a magnificent home, an excellent job, am surrounded with wonderful friends, and am following my heart.  Really, I don’t know that it gets any better than this.

Alas, it must, because my intention is to continue raising my vibration until I every moment, I’m singing.

I am promised great things.  I know that I will have them.  There is no question, and it doesn’t matter how I have them, just that I know I will have them.  This is how it goes.

Can I truly convey to you the feeling that accompanies my words?  It is confidence, and appreciation.  Gratitude and a knowing nod.   It’s a smile and an acceptance that all I desire is already mine.

Yes, this next year, I am unstoppable.  I have partnered up with someone who embraces these same thoughts and ideas as I do, someone who believes in the completion that is already our own.  He sees life through the same colored lens as my own, and we have the same goals, hopes, and dreams.  It is easy to vibrate on a high note alone– alone you can control nearly everything within your experience.  When you have two intimate people, thinking towards the same goal, showing gratitude for the same things, and prompting the Universe to allow more of what we desire together, it is as though our power is not merely doubled but increased tenfold.

With that, I can announce my imminent success in the next year.  I know that everything I intend will come into fruition.  I have thought much about what it is that I desire, and it is all already here before me.  I will enjoy and appreciate it.

And so mote it be.

My note from the universe today:

“By the simple act of thinking, Ash, vortexes are created, invisible energies are applied, and circumstances begin creeping to make real what was previously just imagined. This supernatural pull of your thoughts continues long after you think them, whenever there follows intent, expectation and action; moving mountains, parting rivers, and doing the “impossible” until there is the inevitable manifestation.

This is how your “thoughts becoming things.” How they physically become things in a dimension that already exists, with billions of players and massive momentum. Not by appearing out of thin air, but through a manipulation of such forces in the unseen that literally begin shifting, morphing, and arranging all of the elements in your life so as to deliver to you the nearest equivalent of what you’ve been thinking. In other words, the “law of attraction.”

“Thoughts becoming things” explains the law of attraction. It’s why there is a law of attraction. And unlike any other 3 words in all the vocabularies of all the languages in the world, “thoughts become things” tells you exactly where you fit into the picture, as the thinker, the decision maker over what you will think about, revealing your power as a supernatural, all powerful, unlimited, CREATOR.

But, of course, many prefer not to think of themselves as so phenomenally powerful.

The Universe”

I get notes like these emailed to me every day from this website called TUT.

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I’ve noticed that sometimes I will repeat maladaptive behaviors out of habit. Not because these are the things I wish to do, but because they come so naturally to me. I don’t have to think about them– and that’s probably the root of the problem. I don’t think of them. If I were consciously thinking of them, I would repeat behaviors that were healthy and “good for me.”

So, I’ve got these “bad habits.”

How does one go about eliminating bad habits– replacing them with more productive behaviors? I believe it goes back to the basic core of our behaviors– represented and stored in our brains as memory.

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