I was once told that there are two emotions: fear and love.

While going through the motions of ending a relationship, there are often sad feelings– and I’ve decided those are rooted in fear.

Of course, in me, there are also feelings of love, because in all things, I intend on love.

Love doesn’t quite cancel out fear, but it certainly makes fear lose its power.

My battle strategy: In all things, find love.  Love for me, for my experience, for this life I call my own…

And in that, I find comfort and happiness.   

I find it hard to truly express myself on here sometimes, because after all, it is a blog and there are more people who read it than are necessary for my expression.  It’s not a bad thing– I want to be a published writer and eventually there will be a lot greater number than the 200 or so of you who actually do… But as someone who gets published, I’m obviously not going to air dirty laundry for all to see.  Even book writers who do that make people pay for the drama (in selling their book). So by no means will that ever be my intentions. 

At the same time, I realize just how many of my girlfriends who read this are going through exact experiences– ones where suddenly you wake up and realize YOU are the one who matters– YOU are the one who’s responsible for your experience, not HIM, and no matter how sad it might be, YOU are the one who must act and YOU are the one who must take care of YOU because until YOU do it, no one is!

I guess what I’m trying to say is that there are ways to feel good, or great even.  Ways to feel fantastic.  And all of it really depends on your perception. Do you perceive this experience to be healing or hurtful?  Do you feel out of control or back in the driver’s seat?  Are you feeling LOVE or FEAR?

Self love, above all, is something that we’re rarely taught. 

I am quite certain I still have more to learn about it, but I’m making progress.  Around every bend, every turn, every path I take, no matter how much time I’ve spent wandering it, I have picked up pieces that belong to me– pieces that are mine alone.  And no matter how difficult that path has been, I have absolutely given myself plenty of time to look around, to see if others have followed the path, to see if there isn’t a better path that I can take that suits me better… and in doing so, I’m collecting some great experiences and some valuable lessons… and I wouldn’t change these opportunities for any reason.

So my friends, thanks for joining me on this adventure!

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